HOW DARE YOU!

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To lull me to sleep 

With your razor blade words and saccharine tones

You trapped me in a box till my arms and legs outgrew that absurdly tiny space

That tension made me explode into fractions of the minutest pieces all over the place

It has been taking me years to find them and pick them up

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To rape me incessantly 

Bleeding me to the core

Jeering and misleading me once more

Your wicked plans strapped close to your chest

As you imagine more ways of torturing me undetected 

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To speak abominations 

Of hollow empty promises

Dangling the shadow of hope in your hands

Deceiving me into oblivion

Giving me the drink of darkness in the soul

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To shame me in the court of the multitude 

As you plant those seeds of doubt and discontent

In the secret fields of my solitude

Your weeds have been crowding my mind

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To pollute my well of purity

With evil intentions and belligerent energies 

The silent waters that once ran deep have been stirred like a hornet’s nest

Stinging me with pain unbearable

I numbed myself in silence

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To parade me in my innocence 

Before throngs of unrecognizable faces

Invading my space and bringing me to the guillotine

Avoiding my gaze and pleas for help

You fed me to the pack of wolves

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To snuff out all my brilliant ebullience

You extinguished the optimistic flame within 

And turned it into the raging fires of rage

Yet trapped inside my inner world

Twisting every right to express myself

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To blind me to the true beauty of creation

Making me look at all the lack

By imposing the narratives of your turbulent past

Stealing my joy robbing my purest gratitude 

Forcing entry into my world by hurling your ugly world into mine

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To mock me and hurl insults on my humanness

You made me fear your judgement and all the daggers that you threw my way

I kept running away from you to save my soul and yet I kept running back to you seeking your approval 

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

A chemist of unbelievable proportions 

Concocting decisive manipulation

In ways that hide beneath the sheets 

The clues of neglect have been mixed with sugar and spice but nothing that was nice

Leaving so much distaste

Yet taking away all other options on the menu

I was left with nothing to eat but garbage

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To stunt my growth in every imperceptible way 

Making me second guess myself

Casting a hurricane of disbelief

Tormenting me with the fear of failure and rejection 

Addicted to the image of perfection 

How dare you! 

Who do you think you are?

To play me over and over again 

An unwilling participant in your torturous game 

Pressure on me to defend my inner child

Revelling in my anguish

Never putting an end to my cries 

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

To goad me into the sunken levels of your bane existence 

Frying my emotions and pulverizing my identity 

Pushing me to monster-like tendencies

Stop projecting your vile nature unto me

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

Questioning my life 

After trampling on me unnoticeably

In the silence of the crowd 

You hid your lifetime abuse with all the gravel of your words

But your actions betrayed you

They revealed your abyss of pain and dysfunction 

Till you could no longer live the layers of lies

As your manipulations chased you 

How dare you!

Who do you think you are?

You are not me.

Do not fool yourself into thinking that we are one and the same.

Deal with your thoughts. Deal with your emotions. Deal with your choices. Deal with your lies. Deal with your manipulations. Deal with your cruelty. Deal with who you are and the path that you have chosen.

This is the healing end of all the abuse.

This is the end of the tale you tried to weave.

This is the end of the horror you tried to heap.

This is the end of the sick game you trapped me into playing.

This is the end of you wanting to be me.

This is the end of you stealing my identity.

This is the end.

I am finally free.